| I recently took a job at my local hospital working as Certified Nurse Assistant. Life for me has changed, my burden is heavy.
As I stand watching a man loose his life on earth, I ask was he living in hell? Is he going to be freed? Why didn't he have anymore time?
I think back to the movie, End of the Spear. "I don't have two years, they are killing each other." People are people wherever they are. Why are people against each other, death is so prevalent. People are dying everyday here and there. they are dying emotionally and physically.
Ever thought about going to the hospital and just walking through slowly, looking into the eyes of those laying in the beds. Maybe stopping by and taking a minute to learn about that person that may be dying right before your eyes. Or are they already dead???
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| The world is harsh, my stomach churns. I have so many thoughts and pains that I do not know where to begin, I am in the midst of it now. As I sit and contemplate about actually writing how I feel, I will not give in to the hold that is on me. I will not give into what people try to dictate to me.
When life seems to be going fine, everything falls out from underneath you. Where is the hope? Why have relationships broke? Anger is such a powerful thing that I find that it can often control me. I am angry...angry...angry...angry...
It is not easy for me to deal with change, people that once felt safe to me, no longer do. Why? I now find myself trying to live in the past...I often think that, "Gosh...my life was screwed up" only to remind myself that I am not going to live the best life here, and that all of what my life was, was not the best. There will always be something with our lives that could always be better. How do I resolve myself to the fact this is the way my life will always be?
More questions, how can people just act as if there was no relationship before? How can they just dismiss you?
I am so done with trying, if I could I would give up and walk away from it all. Giving...giving...giving...I am done trying. As someone told me today, giving up is not an option. I say damn!
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| Here is a comment that tina posted to one of my blog entries and I had many comments back. I was just wondering if people wouldn't mind telling me what you think she meant? Share your thoughts please....
"we are gonna change the world Jenn...that's where we could go!!!
To infinity and beyond!!!!" |
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| A picture.... (brought on by a friend!)
There is a desert with grainy dirt/ sand filled with brush and tumble weeds. A dry plain, flat land that goes for miles. On the left there is a majestic black stallion and on the right there are three yellow sunflowers...a few feet away slightly behind the flowers is a full length metal ladder laying on the ground. The sky is full of gray clouds as if a storm is approaching...
What do you think??? Thoughts??? |
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| "Stop living in the past and look at what you have right in front of you!"
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